Unspoken words

Many were the times I should have said "I love you"
but those words were not easy for me to say..
For everyone I loved and told I loved
  pulled back from me and ran away
That made saying "I love you" very difficult for me.

Many were the times when harsh words prevailed..
Where the words of kindness did not endure.
For every time I said words against you
I knew that my heart was not pure
And that made saying I love you much harder for sure

Many were the times I said I love you
  when you were not around
But many were the times when I felt those words
  when simple words could not be found
That made saying I love you a rope around me..

Many are the heartaches when I feel nobody
            knows the pain within
I should have told you how much I loved you
     just to see how they make you grin
But words unspoken nevertheless always resides within

Words left unspoken like "I love you"
would have meant a world to your heart
It is easy to say I love you when we are
      mountains and rivers apart
I always felt those words within me,
   but I didn't know where to start

 I still love though
Though I know I am no longer
               present in your heart.