The tears I never cried

I will sit here and weep
But don't be deceived.
For I cry not for you.
It's purerly a case of what I have sowed
I shall now reap

Oh gosh! I loved you
Lord knows how much.
 I gave you my all
I devoted my time
and offered my heart,
but why didn't I cry for us
when it all fall apart?

People always tell me
"Asanda, you don't always have
to be strong"
But they are not aware
Tha's the strenght I don't have
 to actually cry.
And you thought and I ought to know why.

Today I will cry.
Today I will breakdown.
All my emotions I will let out
through each tear drop.
There's so much to cry about
So many tears I never let out.

Tonight I will lie on my pillow
and transfer pain on it.
Arg!Who am I kidding!!
If I cry tonoght
I will cry for one memory
I will cry for you.
  and that I cannot let it happen
I will not
I refuse!
To shed one sorry tear
Toshow any form of weakness
towards you!

My face is wet!
How could it be?
Had I been crying all along?
All this years I thought I was strong?
But the tears had been rolling down inside of me.
Could it be

That tables are turning on me?

But once they start coming
You can't stop them from rolling and falling

But then again don;t be deceived!
For I cry not only for you
Tonight I cried for my heart too

Have U tried?

Have u tried saying you are ohk but u are not?

Pretending to understand when u
don't?

Acting like you are busy but in reality you are lonely?

Convincing people that you just want to be friends but what you really want is more than just friends?

When you know that he\she has somebody else and you pretend that it doesn't hurt but it really hurts do bad inside?

When you say you have moved on but the truth is you are just still waiting?

When you say you are over him\her
but you know you are still inlove with him\her?

TherE's NothINg LeFT to GiVe...

Sitting here by the window

As I sit here all by myself by the window
I remember me
I remeber you.....
 and I remember us
I remember the beautiful times we had together
the love you made me feel

I remember how you would sing love songs
 for me and make my heart melt.
How we would have long conversations on the
phone just to try and fight the long distance that try
to fight us

U were everything that I ever wanted  in a guy
So I gave you my LOVE.
I gave you my trust
I gave you my the best of me.
U taught me how to love and trust
and then you showed me the pain
for loving and trusting.

What did I do wrong?
Wasn't I enough to make you happy?
I tried to hold on but you kept on changing girls, neglecting me
making me feel so little, like I ain't good enough
But still I LOVE YOU

I am tired and I can't go on like this
I love you truly and no girl has ever loved you as much as I do
Someday you will see that.....
But I LOVE myself more and I come FIRST

Take CaRe oF hER....

 



                          Please take care of her..
                               Be there when everyone else is Gone.
                       Wipe her tears when she cries..
                           Show her the way when she is Lost.

                          Be her light when darkness comes
                   Be her hope when she has lost it..
                         Please take care of her..]

                   Warm her, when it is cold
                       Shield her from danger
                      protect her from the cruel world.
                  Be her friend when she needs one

                Be her angel and Your Heart Shall be her Heaven.

                Take care of her Because Her heart Bruise Easily

Forever friend....

                                      

Sometimes in life u find as special friend........
                   someone who makes u laugh until u cant stop..
              someone who makes u believe that theres an unopened door waiting for u to open

                              A friend like you!

Someone whose there and drops everything just for YOu!
   Who knows the songs in your heart and can sing them to you
      when you have forgotten the lyrics....
  that's a FOREVER friend and a FOREVER friend has no END....

.

....LiFe MaY bE hEll.....

Life may be hell for now but one day it
               will all come to pass
 U may experience difficulties in your life, you
           may have lost your loved ones in your life
 but never lose faith...
Just keep on holding on to your dreams and never give
                                 up.
Sometimes memories may break your
                              heart
and you feel like crying and giving up, the more
            the inner part gets healed
As long as you dont lose your
                    humanity.
Success is everyone comes with kindness and
                   humanity.
Just keep in mind that who can go put u through this
                   struggle is God.
Life may be hell for now but it will pass
and when it passes you will be more
             wiser and stronger,
so enjoy your days because these will be your
                       good old
   days and you are going
           to miss them......

I'M TOO BIG TO CRY

I never stopped to realize,
How lonely I would be.
I never thought that the day would
come
When you will grow tired of me.

The voice was never sweeter,
Than the day you said goodbye.
You'l never know how much it 
hurts...
Because i'm too big too cry.

If I knew than I know now
You would still be kissing me
Instead of someone else's
lips.
Where mine use to be.

I say Hello and wish you well,
each time I pass you.
But you will know how much it
hurts...
Because I'm too big to cry.

You never looked so wonderfull,
As the day you walked away.
I use to say "I love you"
but now that I can not say...

I can't forget you dear...
no matter how much I try.
You will never know how much it
hurts
Because I'm too big to cry